Love my suicide

I stand at the window after you leave.
I stand above the sink.
My cheeks are sore from being hit.
My eyes are black from the eyeliner that i cried off.
I open the draw. I see shiny silver metal.
Knives.
I pick mine carefully.Long, thin and graceful.
Still staring out the window.
Ibegin weeping again.
I hold it over my wrist.Slowly i lower it.
Pressing it against my warm flesh.
The metal feels cold against my skin.
I cut along the lenth of my arm.I copy the perfect line on my other wrist.
My crimson red blood drips down.
Drip, drip, drip.
Into the sink i bleed.
I watch it in wonder.
How perfect, unlike myself.
I look up again.
Looking out the window i see things that aren't there.
I start to feel dizzy.
My head light.
Dilerious.
I forgot everyone i'll leave.
I sit down and start to write.
"it was all your faults.You all killed me.
Everyone.No one tried to help.No one even cared.
I hope you know im happier this way.
I hope you know how long this has bothered me.
But now im gone.
Sorry for the mess.
Bye."
I leave the letter on the sink.
I spin for a second that feels as years.
I fall to the floor.
A smile apperars on my face.
My world turns black.
My life slowly draning from my body.
I whisper to no one."love my suicide"

Loving You From A Far

I still keep on holding on these crippled pictures.
My hands are bleeding through it's torns.
I don't wanna let you go.
Even if I can only watch you from a far in the dark.
Your all I want nothing more even if she's the one you treasured in your heart.
I will still be here until the day I die.
I want to stand up for you in times your feeling troubled and blue.
Just one smile on your face is enough for me.
Even if my heart is slowly dying.
I want to stand always for you even if she's the one you want.
I want to keep on hoping even if it is impossible.
Every night I gaze at the stars.
I wished that I could be one of them so that I can watch you
from a far.
I want to be your light in this world filled with twisted path.
I will still stand up for you even if you can't reciprocate, your heart to me.
It is enough for me from loving you from a far?

Ecstatic Tragedy

Life isn’t a dream
Nightmare claiming to be
Stealing all your hopes
And all your integrity
Darkness falls quietly
He says he likes it so
On the night of the eve
When the cold wind does blow
He turns his head abruptly
Seeming to feel unease
You stand over him, crying
He answers with his pleas
Holding a knife
Hung high above his heart
This one had gotten to you
So you got the head start
His pleading does stop
The cold night on the eve
You walk away with a smile
And his cold blood on your sleeve

Ugly Bug

Little lonely bug
Are you lost
Are you forgotten
"No one loves me
No one loves a ugly bug"
Listen to me
Listen to your heart
There's someone out there who is waiting for somebody like you
Saying the same
Just wait
And they will come
"I'm a loner
I don't like the love and affection things
I like the whole family love
But not the relationship love"
"I'm an ugly bug
No one wants me
No one wants to love me
Can you see I'm lonely"
"Everyone finds love
I'm the only only one
who's the three wheel on a shopping cart"
"I know I won't find anyone who would want me tonight
I know that there is someone out there who is saying stuff like me"
"But now I caccon myself"
"I sleep for the winter"
"I wake in the spring"
Your voices ring inside my brain
"I know I'm special"
"I know I'm beautiful"
"I know I'm not the only one"
I reveal myself to the whole wide world
A beautiful butterfly I've become
Everyone wants to know me
Everyone notices me
I'm now a beautiful one...Now I can tell the other ones
"Your day will come.."
"It will come."

I'm Sorry

I promise, I didn't do it! She cries But daddy can't see the hurt in her eyes.There's anger, he sees red, he picks her off the bedThere's bruises for dinner tonight.Daddy I'm sorry, I dont mean to be so bad!But daddy doesnt care, becausehe is too mad.In her mind, she was bad, she made daddy cryMaybe he's right, it would be better if she could die.Because daddy is in pain, and daddy's life isnt greatThat's why Lily isn't allowed a mate.She knows the drill - dont cry too hard,if she does, her bones will surely be charred.Her eyes widen in horror, Daddy, please not the belt!As she wishes that today could be the day her tears make him meltand love her finally - so that he can see she wasnt a mistake,But underneath it all she knows that it's a waiting game.Mummy will come home soon, it's nearly 6oClock,She wont hug me better, but she can make him stop.Then she'll tell me that at school, I must say my dog had bit me,I know I will die, if I ever tell them myDaddy hit me.So Lily goes to school, as frightened as everHoping that tonight, daddy wont reach the end of his tether.She wishes she could run away - but daddy says he will find her,So this is the epic battle between father and daughter.One day, just after Lily turns seven,Daddy beats her, he says she caused 9/11,Daddy please! I don't know what you mean!But as he chokes her, her face turns from blue to green.So that's what happens,They pack up, and move away.What happened to Lily, I can not say.But no one ever saw the poor baby again - Lily is no more, let's turn our attention to Ben.Ben is eleven and he doesn't know why,But when mummy is bad, daddy makes her cry.He says she's been cheating,But mummy didn't take any tests.So as daddy raises his hand,mummy starts to protest.But all Ben can do, is wait in his roomTill daddy is gone, and Ben can tend to mummy's wounds.It's a black eye this time, and a cut near her chest;Mummy, should it be bleeding like this?All mummy can do, is give ben a last smile,Honey, when you get the chance - run a mile.Mummy was never naughty, its daddy that was badIf you ever hurt a woman, you'll make me so sad.Even if you have problems, just talk to a friend,Because darling, daddy broke my heart - now it will never mend.Every minute of every day, people like Ben watch people like LilyDisappear.We see it happening - yet what do we do?As soon as they're gone - there's nothing we can do.So I tell you now, Next time you here a scream, Speak up.Maybe you will save a life - So daddy, I'm sorry

Once Upon A Dream. (poem)

She Lay in bed all alone.
Tears streaming down her peach colored face.
Wondering what they could of been,
what they could of done.

The bell rang and they all sat in their seats.
She couldnt help but stare all throughout class.
He turned to see her eyeing him up;
but he slowly turned away.

She felt as if she had been crushed by a car;
eaten by a shark.
She had to go back to daydreaming.
And thinking "Once Upon A Dream...."